JULES WAS HERE.

Here I am again.  Watching yet another season of The Bachelor. Oh and let me not forget to mention I also watch Beverly Hills housewives and Mob Wives to top the list. Oh.. and yeah there’s Intervention….I Survived… in which I actually think elevates my mind so those are out of the picture.  Anyway… I am appalled by what I watch.  I am stunned at the behavior of the women and the portrayal of us and how ass backwards all of the stereo-types of woman there are… and yet I watch.  I am saddened at our culture that praises women to be caddy, desperate, and un-loving of their fellow sisters… and yet I watch.  I see more plastic surgery than ever before- more fake lips, boobs, and endless comments on physical appearance rather than intellect.. and yet I watch.  I love to watch this drama unfold.  I tell myself that I refuse to take part in this demeaning culture of reality T.V. but I simply cannot stop watching.  What do I gain from this? How does it continue the forward motion of women in anyway?  Do I watch to feel better about my own life? Do I watch to gratify some urge to be “right” or to feel more intelligent than whom I am watching?  The answer is … probably.  But I can tell you this.  I am not above these women, these shows, or anyone for that matter.  I am here to learn, observe, and love to the best of my ability. I suppose the things i most utterly hate about reality T.V. are also the things I most utterly hate in myself and in turn need to water and grow with love.  I am not writing this to impart some wisdom on anyone— I believe I am only expressing what I feel in this moment…. and the next moment may be different than this one.  I am ever changing and evolving and so are you… Maybe the next moment will be the end of my reality T.V. watching.. either way I can say I truly am enjoying the human animal.. we are a strange breed and no better a place to show that off than in the most obnoxious of circumstances only reality T.V. can produce… I love you/hate you reality!!!